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My Evening So Far

Totally spur of the moment, we decided to have guests over for swimming and dinner. Everything went off without a hitch, dinner was delicious and several of the guests are currently dozing on the couch.

I managed to get a few decent snaps but will only share three so as not to spam your whole evening. Ladies and Gentlemen, Mesdames and Messieurs, please allow me to present . . .

Rainbow Cupcakes and Kids on a Stepladder with Cat Butt

This effect was achieved by dividing the (already prepared) cake mix into three small bowls and adding food coloring, then spooning small amounts of each into the paper baking cups.

This effect was achieved by two goofy children playing with the new stepladder, and an even goofier cat jumping onto the couch before I snapped the picture.

So, True Blood starts in 15 minutes . . . have a great evenin’ ever body!

Katharine Hepburn

Currently, I’m drinking coffee and watching A Long Day’s Journey Into Night. I’m really not sure why I chose such dark and heavy material this early in the day, but when I found it, I immediately put the remote down.

Miss Katharine Hepburn . . . there just aren’t enough words to describe how much I enjoy her. In my opinion, she was never really beautiful, at least in Hollywood’s definition of beauty, but that’s part of her appeal.

And? Every time I see her on screen, I expect her to say, “We saw the Encantadas, but on the Encatadas, we saw something Melville hadn’t written about.”

That is all, you’re excused. 😀

Bringin da funneh

Heard on Entourage, as Vince is leaving an NA meeting:

Vince: Turtle, why did you walk out?

Turtle: Well, I guess I didn’t realize there would be so much . . . sharing . . .

Vince: But that’s what the meetings are all about. They help you to realize you’re not the only fuck up, and you find other people to relate to.

Turtle: That girl who blew her brother for an eight-ball? I don’t see how you could possibly relate to her.

My Brain Won’t Shut Off

Over the past few weeks, I’ve had increased feelings of anxiety over nothing really specific, just life in general. For some reason, my brain decided that Saturday, July 30, was The Day! to determine the cause and find a resolution. It has been wearing me down, since my feet touched the floor.

What I’ve managed to eliminate as possible reasons are:

  • Health: Other than the ungodly summer heat and age-induced aches and pains, my health is good.
  • Money: While I have never had what could be described as disposable income, the bills are paid on time, there is food in the pantry, and I’m not doing without.
  • Employment: It was just announced this past Friday, that the Good Sisters have acquired 75 clinics in Missouri, Kansas, Oklahoma and Arkansas, with approximately 150 physicians, and my building will do all billing for professional services. My job isn’t going anywhere.
  • Family: All good – the remaining siblings are in good health, their children are in good health, Leslie and the wiener kids are as good as good can be, everyone is safe, etc. I have no reason to stress over them.

Without going into great detail, I picked apart any other possible situation that could contribute and when that was a bust, I started working backward – trying to determine when all of this started. It dawned on me that it was just about the time a new lady joined the team at work.

D sits at the desk opposite mine and the way our office is set up, we’re basically isolated from the rest of the team, so we talk quite a bit. D is doing well learning the specifics for her job, and most of the time, she’s a very enjoyable co-worker. D is also a very devout Christian of the Southern Baptist flavor. I found this out right away . . .

When we discuss certain things, like watching Paranormal State, or listening to Led Zepplin and have differing opinions, she usually presents her case, backs it up with scripture, and gives me an object lesson – one that happened to her personally, or to a close acquaintance.

It suddenly dawned on me that I’ve been paying attention to her and it is inspiring all the same fears and self doubts I felt as a kid, when we went to church and the pastor would scream at us from the pulpit. Paranormal State is a fun show to watch, I enjoy it immensely, but if I believe that some people can truly communicate with the dead, will I go to Hell?

Do you see where I’m going with this?

At age 18, I got away from the well meaning, but manipulative, self righteous people of my youth, and worked for years learning to trust my reasoning abilities and gut instincts about what is right and wrong. Now, after being exposed to it again for just a few short weeks, I’m back to being afraid all the time.

Please understand, I am taking full responsibility for this. D is a decent person and doing what she was taught, and she believes is the right thing. She’s sharing her testimony and ministering. I just have to listen politely and remember what I know is the true and right thing for me.

You folk just have to send me some extra strength! 🙂 🙂

It’s Friday!

For some inexplicable reason, this past week seems as though it lasted at least two times longer than normal. It is finally Friday, I’m home, and my sister and I are taking the weenie kids out for dinner tonight. The only thing carved in stone is: No Pizza! That is all they ever want to eat and I’m really tired of it.

In other news, more vacation time has been requested and approved. August 4-10 will find me hanging out here, spending time at the pool and liquor will consumed.

Now that you have more information than you could ever want or need, the Fast Seatbelts sign is off and you’re free to move about the cabin.

Happy Weekend Ever Body!

A Year Ago Today

Christopher died.

It is still as fresh as though it happened only yesterday. I was anxious, easily frustrated, and downright angry for most of the day. Linda to Downstream Casino with two of her friends, just to be away from the house and outside her own head for the day. I wish I could have gone along. I probably would have felt better.

Chris – wherever you are, I hope you’re happier than we are. Love you always and forever.